I’ve never really been the very optimistic type. I’ve always had a habit of looking at the problems of things way before I start to look at the bright side. This habit of mine has caused me to put less effort into things and made me feel hopeless a few times. That’s why one of the goals I have chosen for myself is to look at the greater things in life than the ones that make me feel down. A personal goal I have for myself in particular is to try and make people proud. Do things that I would congratulate others for, and I’ll hopefully start learning to be proud of myself. For academics, I’ve never tried to put an effort into much, except for art. Art makes my brain calm down and push back the stress for a different time, and I wish that it could be the same for the other subjects that I take. So the goal that I chose to help me with this is to try and look at things from a different perspective, and learning not to judge them from past experiences.
I think that a factor that led to my lack of enthusiasm or optimism is just all the past things that people have done to let me down and made me feel terrible about the things I made or did. I just learned to automatically look at the flaws first and point them out before people attack me with it beforehand. I’ve begun to notice that this way of thinking is not the greatest for growing up because becoming a young adult with this mental attitude would cause a lot of problems and complications with getting jobs, living a fulfilling life, meeting people, etc. So, that’s why I think that that should be one of my goals. My personal goal of making people and me proud of myself comes from my battle against bad brain stuff. I’ve never been happy with anything I’ve really ever done and I think that if I tried hard enough, I could kick it into the ground and fight against it. But, I guess that takes time. Patience is also a mini goal for myself. A lot of my close friends help me through bad times, but I don’t want to burden them with the problems I can try to fix myself. Now that I think about it, all of my goals are related to each other- They all have to do with me changing the way I interpret things. The last goal is simple, just to change my perspective on something I dislike, usually for academics.
My plans to achieve my goals are mostly focused on studying and welcoming challenges into my life without me being stressed and depressed about it. I think that the goals I have chosen myself really fit in well in where I need to improve my daily life. They could make me happier, allow me to face things with the glass half full, and so on.