Culturama Rehearsals

As one of my activities I’m participating in Culturama in the Latin America dance. At first I was a little insecure, because I didn’t know the people ( haven’t spoken to my partner before) and I haven’t tried this type dance. Luckily, it turned out that the rehearsals are one of the highlights of the week! We had so much fun together, during this process. First of all, we need lots of patience and focus, because after school everybody is tired and it’s really easy to get distracted. I have seen other rehearsals, where they were really serious most of the time and in my opinion they are missing one of the most important things from these tryouts. Laugh and community. Even if I had a bad day, after the rehearsal I always felt some kind of refreshment and joy from moving and be with my friends.

The show is coming and everybody is super exited, yesterday we just had our lighting – costume trial in the Auditorium. It’s good to see that how everything is developing and we’re becoming more and more confident, even after so many mistakes and falls ( it’s hard to dance in high heels).  Next week is going to be demanding and I hope at the end we’re going to be able to show our energy and happiness on stage as well.

In the video I’m the one at the beginning with the blonde guy (Gleb) :D. This is just a part of the whole dance and we made this video to rewatch and learn the steps.

First Service Reflection

So why did i choose this service and what is it exactly?

I’m going to work with APEX to help elderly people with dementia and try music therapy to improve their remembrance. I think it’s really meaningful to volunteer next to elderlies, because the time before saying goodbye is quite special. No one wants to feel alone and there are so many stories to share! If I’m able to improve their life circumstances and bring a little joy into their days, that means that I was successful and I could help.

I have never met people with dementia and I haven’t really talked to elderly people. At the first session we didn’t meet with the patients, we just had an introductory lesson about the work to do. But on the second occasion we had the chance to introduce ourselves and it was a little bit shocking. One of the patients were really talkative in my direction. He was looking straight into my eyes and talked continuously. I couldn’t understand and I couldn’t look away. It was almost intimidating, because I have never faced a situation like this before. I know I’m going to get used to it and learn how to cope with it, gain some new skills, but I could realise that this is going to be more challenging than I have expected.

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My personality…

I think it’s quite hard to write about my personality and its changes during this 5 weeks. Since I’ve come here I’m not the kind of person who I was at Hungary. I haven’t found myself here, even though I’m trying. But I know that many other people have a similar problem. I know myself and I know that I’m able to reach my goals, but here I’m just feeling lost sometimes. I don’t have a purpose to fight for, don’t have the inspiration to improve. Funny, because here everybody is expecting and supporting us to do that. Sometimes, I’m just afraid that I’m losing parts of myself, while I’m here. I’m kinda get tired of always smiling and be nice while knowing that so many people are just forcing these things. I’ve seen them. I’ve seen the big smiles during the days and the tears after school. The unsteadiness is quite harsh.

Here, (luckily) I haven’t met with really mean or bullying people, but it’s harder to find the deeper ones as well. The truth is that being a new kid sucks… The older ones aren’t really interested in you, they already have their friendship groups.

Interesting, that my friends at home would describe me as an open-minded, sometimes crazy and risk-taker person, who’s always smiling. Here, I’m everything just not that. With the continuous running and doing things I don’t have the time to relax and digest this environment.

Reading this feels like I’m so depressed, but I’m not. I have good friends here and we can share our feelings. But something is missing. Probably, I’m going to find it during the year, because I want to make the best out of it.  I hope, I can find it.