Going to a place that is unknown is completely based on what you hear, that is until you get there. From hearing chilling stories about other boarding students to hearing stories about triumphant or fortunate graduates, it can be a real shock. Sometimes just thinking about it can scare a future border. As one of the lucky millennials in this generation, to have such encouraging and involved parents, I can personally say, there are times I have been dependent on my parents or have felt like I need my parents to support me in certain circumstances. For students like me, it could be nerve-racking to be separated for a while. On the contrary, it does not always start with the butterflies that flutter through your stomach. Sometimes it can start with an explosion of exhilaration and merriment. It’s the feelings of meeting new people and venturing through a new environment that queue all the anticipation. Possibly, it could be the thought of starting over and having a clean slate. Eventually, all these feelings catch up to you and most times you will find yourself in a situation where you are torn between two sides and two emotions.
For me, it started with the eagerness and enthusiasm for becoming a boarding student. The idea of having independence and being on my own lit a fire in me. The concept of being self-ruled, made me feel like a real person that makes their my own decisions rather than following rules someone else makes. Although, I enjoy being with others that are my age and the freedom received, in harder times I find myself being alone without my family. Being away from my sibling and parent makes me anxious about a situation that occurs when I am not around or when they are not around. Nevertheless, others that surround me makes me feel like everything is going to be okay–there is always someone to talk to and someone to understand me. With both polar emotions mixing together, it was confusing to me. Sometimes I was filled purely with bliss and other times filled purely with unhappiness. In spite of that, I can assure you there is repeatedly going to be someone that is willing to help you, even in times when you do not feel like there is.