The dilemma of trying to live ethically

From what Eva Wiseman was stating in her post, I have some realisation and deep personal connections that make me question my actions a lot more than I ever have before. I also experienced a situation that could have possibly ended up me becoming vegetarian. Being a meat lover, my father decided to see a show on netflix about meat, we for a long time thought that we could never change his mind, just like the rest of the family, but him watching that show fully changed his view on things and instead of trying to become vegetarian, he became vegan. Loving meat as much as my dad does, I was asked to watch it with him, but I refused everyday, knowing that I am not mentally stronger than my dad and I would never touch or eat something that I love so much. That realisation for me shows how much denial of true facts I am facing everyday. I  am intentionally doing wrong action and being unethical to myself, lying straight up. But I still continue doing those things, and being a lot more closed minded and scared of change than I thought. I although never say that I am a energy saver or I do good for the environment, because I just simple do not do so. I purposefully take long showers, eat unhealthy things because of simple wants, over needs. I am unethical in most cases, and I do understand that I am biased in every action I make.