Rider:
I did some research on this card and the rider is supposed to mean something is rapidly coming your way. The dreaded IB has finally caught up to us and pretty soon we’re all going to be swamped with endless amounts of work and stress. In my opinion, IGCSE felt like a slap in the face after moving here but apparently its nothing compared to the IB – we don’t know what’s about to hit us. Personally, however, I think the rider looks pretty lonely (and a little lost). Everybody seems to at least partially know what direction they want to take their lives in. Kids my age have been debating and planning their career paths for years now and I always thought that by now I would know what I wanted to do with my life, but I’m still really confused. I don’t even know where I want to go for university, let alone what I want to do. It might not be as big of a deal as I think it is but it really does feel like nobody else is as lost as I am. It’s like I’m riding a horse as fast as I can with no idea of where I’m trying to go.
Book:
My entire life I’ve been passive – never the main character, always the sidekick. I went along with the flow of the people around me, never wanting to stand out too much. I cared a lot about what people thought of me. Most people’s greatest fears are darkness, heights, or spiders. Mine was judgement. I could never walk in public places alone for the fear that complete strangers would laugh at me. I couldn’t introduce myself to groups of people I didn’t know just incase they didn’t like me. I lived my life caring more about my image than my happiness.
But I learned to surround myself with people who loved me. People who uplifted me, gave me confidence, and reminded me of my worth. And soon enough, I started breaking out of my cycle of insecurity. I don’t care what people think anymore. I’m happy with the way I look and who I am. I finally feel like I have my own life – I’m the main character of my own story.
Stars:
While I may be confused about the path I want to take my life in, I have formed the goals and aspirations for my future that I hope I will achieve. However unrealistic they may be, my goals are helping guide the decisions I make right now. I know who I want to be and what I want to do by the end of high school, and I’m changing as a person day by day in order to achieve them. I know what kind of life I want to live when I’m older – I want to be able to take of myself, my family, my friends, and travel as much as I possibly can – and these goals have helped me shape the values I hold today.