For me, being bilingual is something I see as an advantage. Being able to speak 2 languages is always better than 1 and it also makes me special as it is part of my identity and reminds me of where I come from. I speak Bahasa Indonesia and English fluently and have different ways of speaking as sometimes I tend to speak in a mix of both languages depending on who I am talking to. Many years ago when I was a middle schooler, I had a similar experience to what Amy Tan had described in her essay ‘Mother Tongue’. It was a number of years ago when I was in middle school, I was speaking in front of an audience which consisted of a lot of parents, and my mom was there. I was speaking during an assembly and I had a kind of weird feeling by knowing that my mom was in the audience and I barely spoke any English with her which is why it felt quite foreign.
When I was new to UWCSEA 2 years ago, another thing had happened which reminded me of how different I was even though I was trying to make friends with the Indonesian people who were in this school and I had remembered the first time I spoke with them. I could already tell that from the way they spoke in Bahasa they weren’t as advanced as I was. When I got to speak they could barely understand a thing I said just because of the pace I was speaking at and some of the words I was using they were unfamiliar with. I realized this is because although they were Indonesian, none of them actually lived in Indonesia at all, unlike me who lived there for 14 years before coming to UWCSEA. What’s interesting is that just from the background that I had and came from really effects the way I speak and the language I use, and what’s even more interesting is that since that time which was 2 years ago, they have caught up and can almost speak as well as me.