PSE : One Month In – My Personality…

Prompt: My Personality…

I believe my personality is not something set in stone. It is not something that is unchangeable, that can’t be adjusted based on the situation. Rather something that as I grow and mature, develops with me. It’s made up of a variety of factors, such as my experiences, beliefs and intentions. I believe that two or three years ago, I did not have the same personality as I do today.

I was shyer, less likely to participate and take risks. Hesitant to take part in new things, hesitant to put myself out on the line – to expose myself. My passion wasn’t there. I couldn’t see myself working towards anything in particular, I had less of a drive to do the best I can in every situation. Less motivated. My positivity I have today was lacking. Partly because of where in my life  I was at that point. Partly because I had surrounded myself with people with a negative energy. It wasn’t all bad, however. I believe I was resilient, because despite everything I was putting on myself I still showed up, still did what I could. I believe strength has always been a part of my personality, whether through pure grit or stubbornness.

In groups, I tended to sit back, reluctant to share my ideas and plunge into an idea without careful consideration. A tendency to pay attention to detail on all scales.  I think at some point I hit a maturity point. A turning point where I simply chose to be more open. To take risks, and to embrace it. Because it doesn’t matter if it doesn’t work, you tried anyway. I believe that now, spontaneity has become a large part of who I am. I still am careful, attentive and determined, but don’t have the same reserves about doing things that haven’t been intricately planned. I consciously tried to let go of the perfectionist aspects of my personality. For this reason, my personality has flourished. It’s become freer as I continue to explore the different aspect of me.

I know my personality has yet to change, and my current, semi-easygoing, nature isn’t who I am fully. However, I believe that the key to my success will be understanding which parts of my personality allowed me to thrive, and which parts held me back. From that understanding, I will be able to pick and choose the parts I want to radiate and leave behind the parts that should remain in my past as a learning experience.